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Jun. 17th, 2019

ninomiya kazunari, birthday

Happy Birthday Nino!

Whether he's left-handed or right-handed; playing a guitar, piano, pulling off magic tricks, kendama tricks, gaming, wielding a sword or a baseball bat, molding clay, or just simply slurping ramen noodles, one thing Nino always does well is knowing how to entertain and charm us with his hands. His agility, patience, and persistence is just one trait I admire most about him.

In truth, I love many things about Nino; what drew me to him initially was his acting but once I discovered his diverse talents within Arashi, a longer list of reasons to love him grew and intensified. After almost five years of being his fan, I still find something new to love about him every day.

Whenever his birthday comes around each year, I sit and think about why I love him, and the ways in which I could best convey my feelings for him. If I'm absolutely honest this post, like all my others in previous years, could never ever do justice to my true feelings for him. In the past I've posted on Instagram and Twitter, or sharing my love for him with other fans, but I think I am still yet to find the best way to show how deeply and sincerely I feel. I wish I could proclaim to the world how much I love him.

I can only say: Nino, I love you so very much. I wish you the very happiest of birthdays, as I wish you much love, joy, good health, and serenity ~ today and every day. Always and forever  💛 You are my last great love.

These gifs are not mine, nor would I claim them as mine; they were found doing random Google searches. Most were probably from the Tumblr site. Full credit goes to them, not me.

May. 15th, 2019

5x20, arashi


This is a quick post to say that I have decided to postpone my new project

I have way too many unfinished projects in my life, and because of my rather irritating habit of not completing anything (known as procrastination) I have decided to put the scrapbook project on the back burner.

First and foremost, I am a writer. This is what writers do, they come up with a thousand and one ideas in their heads yet they rarely go the distance and see it through. They even come up with a multitude of non-writing ideas as an excuse to not complete their writing tasks. This has been a recurring issue in my life, and now I am at the stage where I know my personal excuses and diverting ideas are not going to get my novel and my family history projects completed.

Don't get me wrong, I love Nino. I will always love Nino. He has been a good distraction from the pain/hurt/frustration/loneliness in my real life. But the show must go on, I need to finish my still outstanding writing projects. I need to do this for myself. Only then can I make a start on the scrapbook. I know Nino will understand, and he would say good luck!

NB. This post serves as a not-so-subtle reminder to myself. All opinions about writers are my own.

Apr. 4th, 2019

5x20, arashi

My New Project

After a long time searching for the perfect scrapbook album online, I finally found the one I wanted last weekend. I was also extremely happy to discover that it was being sold by someone in my local area, so I sent a message to them to ask if they would waive the shipping fee if I could pick it up. They responded one better, they delivered it to me and I got $5 off the asking price! Now I can finally get to work on my 'Strangers on a Train' project. If you feel inclined to read, see this post here.

If you don't feel inclined, bascially at the end of my past blog post I said these words: "Edited: I almost forgot to mention, I am going to make a special 見知らぬ乗客 scrapbook for the tenth anniversary." As this year is the tenth anniversary.... you know the rest!

For this special project I will be using some magazine articles which I won in an auction recently, some postcards, some photocopies from the pamphlet, and a lot of images which are currently in my SOAT laptop folder are in the process of being printed at my trusted photography store. Also I intend to include some of my own personal notes from Patricia Highsmith's book, Alfred Hitchcock's film, and Robert Allan Ackerman's screenplay which Nino of course starred in.

I will try to take more photos as I go along and update my progress on my Twitter account (@ KizunaNino) and when I am finished, I will definitely make a blog post, so stay tuned. I can't promise it will be finished overnight, but it will be finished by July (fingers crossed).

Mar. 3rd, 2019

5x20, arashi

A Brighter Rainbow

I literally saw this image on Pinterest yesterday, and almost burst into tears of joy on the spot. I decided there and then to download the image and edit it to my own taste (I did so using the Line Camera app; made the background white, and added a rainbow sticker).

Why did this image floor me? Because I related it to Arashi and how I have been feeling this past five weeks. Today marks exactly five weeks since the hiatus announcement and emotionally, I have been all over the place!! I have posted tweets only to delete them. I have composed DMs to my Twitter mutuals, only to delete them. I have even posted three blogs here on my LJ (the last of which was supremely emotional) and then deleted them. I have laughed out loud one minute and burst into tears the next. It took me almost three weeks to watch current VS Arashi and Shiyagare episodes but once I did, it really helped me. I listened to Arashi music after a week to ten days after the hiatus announcement and it really helped me. I would even go so far as to say, it healed me. (That is no exaggeration by the way, it really lifted my spirits...).

I just realised I am talking in past tense, like I was emotionally bereft but I am not any more. Like, I am now in the acceptance phase when in reality I duck in and out of acceptance and grief so often my heart has whiplash!! Granted, I did have a lot going on in my personal life right at the same moment of the hiatus announcement, and I was a nervous wreck because I had to step right out of my comfort zone and enter into a whole new realm. That was enough to cause me emotional distress for several weeks but now that I am much more settled, I came to realise that I actually hadn't been thinking about Arashi non-stop 24/7. So, if that can be deemed as acceptance, then I guess I have had real life distractions to help me overcome the harsh reality? I don't know, I change my mind too often hahaha

So, when I saw this image yesterday "The greater your storm, the brighter your rainbow" I related it to this: Arashi means storm, and Arashi have been the greatest healer in my life for the past four and a half years therefore making Arashi my greater storm. Arashi are symbolised by a rainbow and many fans make phrases, memes and quotes referring to Arashi being rainbows, and let's face it - Arashi definitely are the brightest thing in my life (aside from my daughter, whom I love dearly). The power of Arashi's presence in my life, the ways in which they have helped and healed me, they have created the brightest rainbow in amidst the mass of storms that real life can dish out. Also, this phrase symbolises for me that Arashi are so great, they will never leave us. Their brightness will never fade away. Yes, they are going on hiatus but they are not abandoning us. They are too great, they are too bright.

Does that make sense? In my messed up, emotional head (and heart) it makes sense to me *hahaha blush*

Addendum: Arashi are my storm, therefore they are the brightest rainbow in my life.

Jan. 27th, 2019

5x20, arashi

Worst Day of my Life

There are no other appropriate polite words......... I am devastated. Gutted.

I need time to process this. A couple of years won't be long enough to get accustomed to this. They have been my rock. my happy place, my rainbow filled heart. Where do I go from here? Yes, I will continue to stand by them so don't @ me. I love each of Arashi dearly. I just need time to get my head and heart around this news....................

Oct. 29th, 2018

natsu hayate



I have a brand new layout! The blue bubbles layout I had previously was cute and all, but to be honest I really wanted to change it months ago. I've been wanting something that stood out more. So I went for bold! Do you like it? :)

I've been really lazy in the blogging department lately, and before I even blink ~ the Kimi no Uta single was released ~ October is drawing to a rapid close ~ and then it will be Arashi's 19th anniversary for their debut single next week (November 3rd, for the uninitiated *wink*)!!

There were soo many things that I wanted to do in the latter half of this year, and yet I've had ZERO (said in Sakurai Sho style voice) motivation. I still haven't written a blog post review for Nino's Black Pean, even though I have now watched it all the way through twice. I don't think my review post will happen now, suffice to say I truly adored Nino as Tokai sensei. But that goes without saying really.....doesn't it?!

I also wanted to do a review of the Mannequin Five segments from Himitsu no Arashi chan, which I enjoyed immensely. I still might write a post for that sometime though, but it was my initial intention to screenshot each one of Nino's fashion choices but before I knew it, I was more than twenty segments in and going back to the start wasn't really an option I desired. I actually need to go through my HnA episode guide/list and highlight all the Mannequin Five episodes. That might just bring back some of my motivation and make tracking the episodes down a lot easier.

Oh, and I wanted to leave it here that I've now finished watching these Arashi variety shows:
C no Arashi
D no Arashi
G no Arashi
Mago Mago Arashi
Arashi no Shukudai kun
Golden Rush Arashi
Himitsu no Arashi chan

Still need to finish watching:
Nama Arashi
USO?! Japan
Mayonaka no Arashi
Arashi no Waza-Ari

My list excludes Arashi ni Shiyagare & VS Arashi because those two variety shows are still currently airing. I have a lot of gaps where I've seen early episodes and current/recent episodes but with a big chasm of "still need to watch" in between. Especially years 2011-2014 episodes of Shiyagare and years 2008/2009 for VSA.

Hopefully I will get time to post on November 3rd. "You are my soul, soul itsumo suga soba ni aru......."

Sep. 15th, 2018

natsu hayate

19th Anniversary

1999.09.15 ~ 2018.09.15

 🎉  H a p p y  A n n i v e r s a r y  A r a s h i !  🎉

 💚  I'm grateful for your music
 💜  I'm grateful for your concerts
 💛  I'm grateful for your generosity
 💙  I'm grateful for your dedication
 ❤️  I'm grateful for your existence

These are my own posts from my Twitter account, and three posts from my Instagram account, both made in 2018.

To be honest, I really don't know what else to add except just to say that I am forever grateful that Arashi came into my life. I am so thankful, so blessed, and so full of love for these five adorkable men. I love each one of you so very much! Thank you for giving us 19 years to cherish and treasure, in our hearts and in our souls.

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